Today I am going back to Jamie Ridler's Wishcasting Wednesday. I couldn't resist her question: What do you wish to welcome in? I love this question. It feels warm and inviting and expansive, and it reminds me that it is better to welcome in what you want to have in your life than to try to push away the things you don't want.
So what do I want? I want to move through my life with grace and courage. I want to do things as they need doing so they don't pile up in my mind, weighing me down and stressing me out and holding me back from what I really want to be doing. I feel like there might be a word for this, but I can't think of what it is right now.
I welcome in calmness and grace and courage and moving forward. Welcome to my world, all of you!
And now a quick ROW80 check-in since Sunday got away from me. This week, I have been giving myself permission to step away from pretty much everything. There's a lot of stressful stuff happening right now, but it should be mostly wrapped up after this weekend. Until I am done with it I am mostly focusing on each moment, asking myself "what will help me feel calm and grounded right now?" and then doing that if I can.
I have been making some collages for The Right-Brain Business Plan which feels fun and light-hearted and is actually moving me forward on my coaching goals. I have been reading and doing a little journaling but haven't done any writing practice. So I haven't been completely stagnant, I am just taking it easy.
The combination of still being tired and run-down from being sick and a lot of stressors added into my life over the past 10 days means I have to gather my energy and hunker down a bit, but I know it's only temporary so I'm actually feeling pretty good about having the insight to know that I need to take things slowly and actually doing it.
Between now and Sunday I have several things that need to be done so I'm not sure it's time to set any writing goals for the rest of the week. I do want to do more journaling because that's a very helpful process. Other than that, there's so much else that has to happen that I don't want to plan for things that probably won't happen. On Sunday, I am hoping I will be at a point where I can get back to some writing goals. See you back here then.
For what feels like the first time in ages, I am coming to a ROW80 check-in feeling really good about how I'm doing. My decision to take my writing back to the bare-bones basics was a good one. I feel like a huge weight has been lifted from me. I find I am suddenly looking around at my world and seeing possibilities, things I can do and want to do rather than tasks that must be completed.
One of the things I've been wrestling with since September is the balance between working on my coaching and working on my writing. I've been trying to set goals to accomplish things in both areas, and for the most part nothing has been happening. Now that I've backed off on trying to work on a specific story, I have had many insights. I believe the right course for me just now is to put my main focus on creating content for my coaching and teaching.
Of course, I have no intention of ditching my writing. I get cranky when I'm not writing regularly. But I see now that moving back to journaling and doing writing practice (Natalie Goldberg style, working from prompts or just working on descriptions of what I see around me, etc.) while I get my footing on the coaching front is an excellent choice. Both things are very important to me, and I want to give them both time and attention. But a big project requires extra time and attention in the beginning stages, and that's where I am in my coaching and in my story writing. I haven't been getting anything done because there just isn't enough energy to put that much attention into both.
I think once things are up and running with my coaching, once I find a rhythm there on some level, the stories will be able to work their way back in more easily, especially if I keep the way paved with writing practice and journaling. And this plan feels do-able and good. It feels like I am not having to abandon one thing in favor of the other, and that is important to me.
One funny thing is happening. I am finding that on some of the writing prompt exercises, the story snippets I write are about some of the characters from my two current WIPs. So who knows--maybe as I keep going on this I will have some story work done after all. I am not opposed to that; I just don't plan to actively set goals for that right now. For now, just engaging with writing in small bits and pieces while I give my coaching lots of time and attention feels really good, so I'm sticking with this plan.
Goals through Sunday:
Writing practice or journaling at least 3 times
Create a creative play area in the living room because I always end up working in there anyhow
Create a space in the bedroom to lay out my clothes the night before so my mornings get easier
I am here. It is Sunday and time for another #ROW80 check-in, and I am present and accounted for.
Since my reset on Wednesday, I have journaled a couple of times and started researching supplements to help me get healthier. I haven't done anything with exercise because walking across the grocery store parking lot still leaves me short of breath. So the exercise and housework are going to have to wait a little longer.
I have decided that I like going back to simpe writing. This was a good choice. I have been overwhelming myself lately with all of these things I want to do and be, and not much of anything has been getting done. Reconnecting with my writing on this most basic level lets me rebuild a regular practice without the pressure of trying to procuce something in particular. I am finding that this is a good space for me to be in.
Lately I have been looking forward a little too much. It's good to have goals and plans, but I was too focused on where I am going. I had lost sight of where I am right nere and now, and this was leaving me out of sorts and off-balance. So focusing on a writing practice that is just about the here-and-now and not about some future, finished work is feeling like the right thing. I have decided that for the remainder of this round, at least, my writing goal is going to be writing three times a week, either just freewriting in my journal or writing from a prompt for at least 10 minutes. I feel like a huge weight has been lifted from me with this decision, and I am really looking forward to immersing myself in words and writing with no thought for the outcome for a while.
After nearly a month of being sick, I tried to make a return with a ROW80 check-in on Sunday (you can see that here), but the Universe decided that I needed more rest, because my website went down for two days!
But today I am back for real. Mostly back. I am still in recovery mode but feeling so much better. Well enough that I am finally getting interested in doing things again. But I am completely off track with any goals I set back in early January, so I am thinking the first thing to do is make a new batch of goals for myself. Now is a great time to revamp and restart anyhow, since Saturday was the beginning of spring in the old Celtic calendar, and spring is a perfect time for beginnings.
Round 1 Goals
Writing: journal or write from prompts for 10 minutes at least three times a week
Health: start taking supplements for immune and digestive systems
Exercise: build up to 10 minutes of cardio three days a week
House: spend at least 30 minutes once a week working on decluttering and organizing
I am dialing back my writing goals for now because I have a lot going on, and I am feeling a need to get back to my basics, back to the beginnings of playing with words and images and ideas with no goals in mind other than getting words down on paper. I hope that as I work to build my health and energy levels I will have more focus to get back to working on stories.
I have a few other things in the works for my coaching, but I'm going to save that for another post (although you can get a bit of a hint if you check out my post from Sunday).
Hello, internet! Did you miss me? I certainly missed being around. I have been very ill for almost a month (flu, then pneumonia), so I have been absent from pretty much everything. I am still not fully recovered, but things are better, so I thought I'd use the ROW80 check-in as a re-entry point.
I haven't done anything the past three weeks. The first few days, when I had the flu, I was able to read. But once things ramped up I lost any focus and energy for anything but staring at the television and coughing a lot.
I am still very tired, but the coughing is slowing down. I am hoping that some energy and focus will start returning this week. I am not going to set any goals for this week other than checking in again on Wednesday. I would like to get some journaling in to help ease myself back into being a functioning person again, so maybe on Wednesday I will be able to report that I have done that.
I have all sorts of nifty ideas for MuseCraft and my coaching and my writing, but I will wait until I am more coherent before I start sharing that. Meanwhile, I am just glad to be back! See you Wednesday.