Overwhelm is one of those funny things in life. I know what needs to be done about it. I can guide other people through and around it as I coach them. And still it is a thing that returns to me and trips me up repeatedly.
I am letting the overwhelm come and just looking at it right now. And as I don’t panic and try to run away from it, as I don’t throw myself into busy work that has nothing to do with my writing or the overwhelm, I am getting a clearer picture. I can see that the overwhelm is stemming from fear. Fear that I’m not a good writer, that I don’t have it in me to write a novel, fear of failure.
That’s all right. If you are having fears about your creative work, say this to yourself. Say it out loud.
It’s all right.
And it realy is all right. It’s all right to feel nervous or afraid. It is all right to not know exactly how you’re going to get where you want to go. It’s all right to have these feelings. You don’t have to do anything with them. Just have them and then pick one thing and do it. Even if it’s one tiny thing. Even if you aren’t sure it will help or be useful. My grandfather used to say, “Do something even if it’s wrong.” That’s what we should all do together. Do something. It is so much easier to make adjustments or corrections or revisions to something that exists than it is to try to make sure whatever we do will be “right” in the first place. So go ahead. Go out there.
Do something even if it’s wrong.
So about that check-in. I’ve started on my Aristotle’s Incline, but it isn’t finished. I have been figuring out some plot points and things that need to happen and things that might be really good in the story. I’m making a list, and I’m also making a short synopsis of what I’ve written so far so I can see where my new ideas will fit in.
I’m going to work on my incline and the synopsis and the random scene ideas between now and Friday, and on Saturday I’m going to write.
See you Sunday with news on how that’s going. And remember–do something!