Today I had an epiphany.  I think I've had this one before.  I think I will probably have it again.  But today I thought, "Right where you are is where to start. No need to catch up or do anything else but take one step on the path."   And I knew it was true.  There are things I've been feeling so behind on (for example, the Life Book 2013 class I'm taking that fell by the wayside when I got the flu/pneumonia/Plague of 2013 and that I am just this week getting back to).  But today I realized that none of them are things that I have to do anything with except just start again, take the next step, just pick them back up and bring them back into my life.

I wrote my spring wish for Wishcasting on the back!

Some things I want to start/restart from right here:

  • Art journaling
  • Journal writing/writing practice
  • Drawing (taking Draw Happy with Jane Davenport and it's great!)
  • House cleaning/organizing
  • Creative practice

I have some other things I want to do, but I haven't worked out a nice, concise catch phrase for them to put into my bulleted list (such a shame--I love lists!).  Maybe another list another time when I have a clearer picture.

I am planning some changes to this blog and my newsletter, and one of the changes involves me getting back into a regular creative practice which is why that phrase shows up there on my list.  I'm not sure what that creative practice will look like just now.  It will probably have something to do with art journaling, I think. It would have been easier if I had started this in January because then I could have done a "one year of such-and-such" sort of thing, but it's not January so I don't think that will be the thing.  "Nine months of such-and-such" maybe?  That could work out.

Meanwhile, I'm doing a little bit of Wishcasting Wednesday and a ROW80 check-in, and then I'm going back to organizing my blog reader to help me feed my soul and boost my inspiration and make connections to my creative peeps every day.

Wishcasting Wednesday:

Jamie asks, "What is your spring wish?"  I wish to have more faith in myself and confidence in my abilities.  I wish to believe in myself at least strongly enough to let me keep moving forward and not get mired in self-doubt and worry.


Mostly this week is still about figuring out where I am going with my writing and how all of the different sorts of writing I do can fit together comfortably.  I had a huge breakthrough on the changes I want to make for my blog and newsletter, so this contemplation and giving myself some space is paying off.  I've been writing in my journal and making lists and notes all over the place, and I feel things coming together and opening up for me.

One of the things I realized in the past few days is that I want to put a big focus on journaling and Natalie Goldberg style writing practice.  I'm not sure this is something for a ROW80 goal for next round--I feel like I should be making goals about stories and blog writing.  "Real" writing.  But writing practice is real writing, too, and I know that it helps me reconnect with my storyteller self, so I know it's important.  It just feels a little weird to be putting it out in public as my main goal right now.  But I know it's the right thing to be doing right now, so I'm standing my ground and sticking with it, and if it's weird, then I guess I'll just be a happy, writing weirdo!





For what feels like the first time in ages, I am coming to a ROW80 check-in feeling really good about how I'm doing.  My decision to take my writing back to the bare-bones basics was a good one.  I feel like a huge weight has been lifted from me.  I find I am suddenly looking around at my world and seeing possibilities, things I can do and want to do rather than tasks that must be completed.

One of the things I've been wrestling with since September is the balance between working on my coaching and working on my writing.  I've been trying to set goals to accomplish things in both areas, and for the most part nothing has been happening.  Now that I've backed off on trying to work on a specific story, I have had many insights.  I believe the right course for me just now is to put my main focus on creating content for my coaching and teaching.

Of course, I have no intention of ditching my writing.  I get cranky when I'm not writing regularly.  But I see now that moving back to journaling and doing writing practice (Natalie Goldberg style, working from prompts or just working on descriptions of what I see around me, etc.) while I get my footing on the coaching front is an excellent choice.  Both things are very important to me, and I want to give them both time and attention.  But a big project requires extra time and attention in the beginning stages, and that's where I am in my coaching and in my story writing.  I haven't been getting anything done because there just isn't enough energy to put that much attention into both.

I think once things are up and running with my coaching, once I find a rhythm there on some level, the stories will be able to work their way back in more easily, especially if I keep the way paved with writing practice and journaling.  And this plan feels do-able and good.  It feels like I am not having to abandon one thing in favor of the other, and that is important to me.

One funny thing is happening.  I am finding that on some of the writing prompt exercises, the story snippets I write are about some of the characters from my two current WIPs.  So who knows--maybe as I keep going on this I will have some story work done after all.  I am not opposed to that; I just don't plan to actively set goals for that right now.  For now, just engaging with writing in small bits and pieces while I give my coaching lots of time and attention feels really good, so I'm sticking with this plan.

Goals through Sunday:

  • Writing practice or journaling at least 3 times
  • Create a creative play area in the living room because I always end up working in there anyhow
  • Create a space in the bedroom to lay out my clothes the night before so my mornings get easier