This week, Jamie Ridler asks, "How do you wish to spend your days?" If money weren't a consideration I would spend my days reading and writing, taking classes, making art, knitting, lounging with my cats. If money is back in the mix, then I would add in teaching others what I've learned and helping them find their dreams.
I want to remember that this is what I'm aiming at and that I can bring parts of this dream into my regular life even now, even though I have a day job. I can put all of these things in my life right now, but I need to remember that I want to do it.
That brings me to my ROW80 check-in. I am feeling a lot more focused about my writing. A few things have been coming together for me over the past week or so, and I have realized that while I have a lot of things I want to do and accomplish right now the main thing I want to give my attention to is my writing. My heart tells me this is where to turn my focus no matter what my head says, and I am going to do what I teach my students and clients--I am going to follow my intuition.
Once I acknowledged that what I really want is to give my writing my fullest, best effort and once I decided that I am going to go with that desire, my attitude shifted. I am more focused on my writing. I am not constantly hopping from one thing to another. I'm not even mooning and pouting over all of the cool classes that are always being touted and that I don't have money for because now, even when the classes look especially good, there's a quiet little voice in my head that says, "Yes, that looks good, but it would take away from the writing." I hear that voice, and suddenly I don't feel bad that I "can't" take all the classes I want. Suddenly I am feeling good about choosing my writing over everything else.
Between now and Sunday I'm going to try to finish my read-through of my WIP so far. I say "try" because it is a little over 50,000 words, and I do have other things that I have to do between now and Sunday, so it may be a little out of reach. But I'm betting I can get close to finishing.
I'm going to set aside making any plot notes or any of that right now--thinking about doing that while doing the read-through has been stalling me. So for now I'm just going to read--my story and a book on plotting I picked up. Next week I can get down to the notes and plotting, after I remind myself what I've already written.
Small steps. It's what I teach. Now it's time to practice it myself.