I'm not a writer because I love to write. Â I don't always love writing. I avoid it sometimes. Â I even wash the dishes sometimes instead of writing. Â Some days it not only doesn't come easy,Â it doesn't come at all, and I have to write "I don't know what to write" over and over in my notebook just to get a few hundred words to finally trickle out.
Some days the writing does come easy. Â The words fly onto the page, and I look back and really like what I wrote. Â I love the feeling of satisfaction and accomplishment I get from a good writing session. That's still not why I'm a writer.
I am a writer because I have stories to tell. Â There are stories inside me all the time, some half-formed, some less clear than that. Â But it's constant. Â I am flooded with story ideas and fragments and whole stories, all the time. Â I need to tell them.
I think this is whyÂ most writers write, butÂ I think it can be hard to let this be our reason.Â There's a lot of talk out there about your passion--living your passion, finding joy in your work (I'm sure there are hundreds of other phrases like this, but you get the idea). Â We think we have to be constantly on fire about our writing, in love with it, living for it.
I bought into all these ideas about finding my passion, and when I didn't love writing I thought I was wrong about being a writer. Â I thought I had to love writing or else I wasn't really a writer and was doing the wrong thing.